Long Story Short About My Scars, 🌼
Yes, I did once betray some people before. I was wrong before.
I realised that I did a mistake. So I decided to change myself. I just started to change around two months. But some people are still bad mouthing me about my past. Even-though I already decided to change myself to a new one, they’re still repeating my mistake over and over again.
I hate it because it hurts me. I choose to stay silents but they themselves still choose to talk about me & at the end of the day they WALK AWAY feeling not guilty at all and let the burden on me and my families. They’re also trying to threaten me by blackmail saying that if I do this and do that, they’re gonna kill me.
Huh can you imagine gais? Haha. After that, aku cuba cari jalan aku sendiri. Tapi jalan yang aku pilih juga penuh dengan duri. I’ve to deal with some people that think I was about to ruined their relationship but obviously they’re just friend & only friend. Aku jumpa jalan aku, aku fight untuk jalan aku. Tapi hari demi hari aku fight, aku makin sakit sebab mulut dan perbuatan orang orang yang cakap aku “perampas”. Instead of fighting, I choose to STOP.
I gave up & let everything’s go. Again, I choose to stay silents gais. I turn off my phone, pergi tempat lain untuk tenangkan diri aku. The whole night, aku berdoa & serahkan semuanya kepada Allah SWT. It’s okay if I’m not married, I’ll be fine. Finally, I redha.
After a few days, dengan kebisuan aku tentang apa yang terjadi, juga dengan senyuman yang aku ukirkan setiap pagi, redha dengan apa yang terjadi and....
Allah‘s timing is perfect in every matter. Never early, never late. It takes a little patience and it takes a lot of faith.
What is meant for you, will reach you even if it is beneath two mountains. What isn’t meant for you, won’t reach you even if it is between your two lips.
#xoxo #lovewithbeautifulheart #🤭